There are days when I wonder

Is this all there is?

Is the world turning but I am just standing still?

There are days when I wonder

Am I a good mom? Grandma?  Step mom?

Have I trained up my children in the way that they should go?

Will they remember?

Am I enough of a woman for my husband.

There are days when I wonder

Is my mom looking down

Is she proud of where I’m going?

Was she proud of where I’ve been?

But then there are days that I know

I  have loved my kids with all my heart.

I have tried my hardest to show them

GRACE.

God’s grace.

I know…

That I am moving forward

as best as I can, one foot in front of the other

Lupus be damned.

I know…

I love my husband unconditionally.

We forgive, although sometimes hard to forget

We forge onward into the building of a life.

We love completely, whole heartedly.

Our passion isn’t held back.

And I know….

My mom is looking down

She is loving me from heaven

She is proud of me, proud of my children

She knows she taught me well

the meaning of

Amazing grace.