While watching the American Music Awards on sunday night I found myself feeling very old and “out of it”. But upon further reflection I have discovered that what has really happened is that the world has gone completely bonkers. There was so much bleeping out of words, so many times when I thought to myself “how inappropriate is that, and these are the people our kids look up to”. And then came Adam Lamberts “performance” if you can even call it that. I was shocked, appalled and quite honestly sickened by the whole thing. I remember watching American Idol thinking that he was so talented, he had so much potential. I remember thinking that God had given him a gift that he would hopefully use well!
guess what…I’m not so sure he is using the gift well! It is just my opinion, but, his performance was so explicit and just plain wrong that I was really glad I wasn’t watching it with my kids. I had hoped to purchase his CD when it came out thinking it would be a great one to have. Now, I won’t buy it!
So, when did the world, people in the world, decide that behavior like that was okay on TV and that ‘we” all wanted to see it??? I guess I’m thinking that surely someone knew that the performance was going to be like that, and maybe a disclaimer or possibly those awards shows that are so disturbing, where they can’t even play entire songs without bleeping out half the words, should be on a cable network instead of a regular channel! I believe in free speech, but there is a limit to what I want to see on TV. And yes I could have not watched the show, however, there were a lot of other artists on the show who were wonderful and have amazing talent and were appropriate for a Sunday evening viewing. What happened to our world? To our sense of what is decent? What is pure and right? Adam Lambert’s performance was none of that!
My kids performed at a coffee house this past weekend. I was so proud of them! They are incredibly talented. Jake wants to be in music full time when he graduates…wants to go to college for music! Ashli just graduated from college but has always been an amazing singer! So, without further ado…here are some videos of their group Hoopla!done
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I am having surgery tomorrow to have some cancer removed from my arm! I will be back in a couple of days to check in and let everyone know how things went!
Today is my husband’s Birthday! In celebration of this great day we went, this past holiday weekend, to visit his family in Farmington New Mexico. He hadn’t seen a lot of his cousins in many years, and hadn’t been back to Farmington in I don’t know how long. We had an amazing time! His cousin John and his wife, who happens to have the amazing name of Lori!, opened their house to us and were amazingly wonderful! They took us to Silverton Co for the day…beautiful place! And the weather…it was a lupus fighter’s dream come true! It was perfect the entire weekend. We had such fun, had time to reconnect with each other after this totally stressful and crazy time in our life, talked, laughed and just had fun for a few days without worrying about anyone but us! Sounds selfish kind of, but at the same time things have been so hard, so tense and out of control with his son, and with life that we needed this time to be together! I’m not saying that we solved all the problems that are going on right now. That is a work in progress that has no easy answers…well there is one easy answer…send his son to a detention center….but even that isn’t an easy answer. I miss my kids, I miss how life was before my step son got so messed up, and I miss the more calm atmosphere that our house used to have. How to get any of that back after all the hurt and emotional turmoil that has gone on is yet to be seen.
I found this song on the Sugarland CD thats lyrics really hit me. When I heard it for the first time it was as if Jesus were standing there in front of me speaking them directly to me. I thought I would share them with you in hopes that maybe they will speak to you on some level as well!
WHEN THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD BEARS DOWN SO STRONG, YOU LEAVE FOOT PRINTS IN THE STREET
AND THERE’S TOO MANY MILES TO FACE WITHOUT A FEW MORE HOURS SLEEP.
THE STORM CLOUDS OVERHEAD WON’T SHED ANY RAIN TO QUENCH YOUR THIRST
I WANNA BE THE ONE YOU REACH FOR FIRST!
WHEN YOU’RE FAITH IS STRETCHED SO THIN THAT YOU CAN SEE STRAIGHT THROUGH YOUR SOUL
AND YOU CAN’T FIND A NICKLE TO BUY A SMILE CAUSE YOUR POCKETS ALL GOT HOLES
BEFORE THE DAY CAN GET MUCH WORSE, I WANNA BE THE ONE YOU REACH FOR FIRST!
FALL INTO ME, MY ARMS ARE OPEN WIDE! AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO SAY A WORD CAUSE I ALREADY SEE
THAT IT’S HARD AND YOU’RE SCARED AND YOU’RE TIRED AND IT HURTS
AND I WANNA BE THE ONE YOU REACH FOR FIRST!
I need to remember to make Jesus the one I reach for first. When I feel like I can’t take anymore, like I am going to fall apart, when my heart is breaking beyond repair, He needs to be the one I reach for first!
Life takes some really strange turns. Lately my life has gone all topsy turvey upside down and sideways. I feel like I have to take a step back, breathe and try to gain perspective. I’m not going to lie…having a step son in trouble is difficult at best. It has caused so much hurt and heartache not just for his parents but his step parents, siblings and step siblings. It has caused rifts between people, relationships are being hurt and the sad truth is that he, himself, doesn’t even realize the scope of harm his actions have caused. I want to believe that he has turned a corner and that this has been a wake up call for him, I’m praying for that. But my gut tells me different. And, I’m not sure who can get through to him.
But, on a positive note, my son….my talented son….got a chance to play for the first time at church. I was so proud of him. He has amazing musical talent, as does my daughter. I am so proud of all three of my kids and how hard they have worked to get where they are. Life hasn’t always been easy or kind to them, but they have grown into extraordinary human beings.
So, here is my son playing his bass at church…and a video of my daughter and son…he is playing and she is singing. done
I am a wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend, lover, writer and a lupus fighter. My daily struggle with this illness has brought me many ups and downs but God's grace is limitless, His love is unfathomable. He makes the unlovely lovely and makes the chaos that is my life beautiful.
