Seriously? I mean seriously? I am a 45 year old woman, thinking that life should be getting easier. My kids are old enough to take care of themselves…or they should be…actually my husband and I should be able to have date nights, vacations alone, times of romantic evenings, dinners, talks on the phone, walks in the evening. We should be able to sit with our little puppy in the evening and watch TV…nope, not happenin. We spend out time dealing with kids being suspended from school for stupid things like throwing paper clips at teachers or other such nonsense, or fending off the police who are called by nutcase mother in laws who claim we are stealing their life savings (what life savings?) from under their noses all the while they are using all our cell phone minutes and racking up a whopping 400+cell phone bill cuz they think their home phone is bugged so they don’t pay the phone bill for months at a time, they call the bank and close out their accounts, and on and on.
I literally threw up three times this morning because I am in knots. Add to that the fact that we added a new guy to our business who has the potential to bring quite a bit of new business to our company, but has definately added new stressors to the mix, and I am a flat out disaster walking. My husband has been strolling in at 1 or 2 AM at the earliest. I have become the one he doles out his frustration on, which I suppose is normal, but I really don’t enjoy driving 20 miles one way just to be the one who is the kicking post for the frustrated people of the world. I’d much rather stay home, crawl in a closet and hide until the storm blows over, if that ever happens. As it stands I am the one who has stolen my mother in laws medications, her money, and am trying to kill her, I frustrate my husband, my stepson can’t stand me and I am just in the way of him getting into trouble…go figure, and lupus is having a hay day in my body. It is not fun being me right now…and I feel like a big ole cry baby!
I’m not one to normally whine or moan or complain. But these days really suck right now and I am not really sure how to make it better! So, I’m complainin! My sister in law called adult protective services on my mother in law today. They will be coming out within the next few days to get my mother in law to observe her and decide what needs to happen with her. I guess that is a step in the right direction. Other then that who knows! Only God’s grace can make things any better!