I know things are different. I can feel it in my body. Things are not going the way they should be. My huge attempt to find a great replacement at the company for my husband didn’t work so well. I thought we had hired a great gal and that she was going to fit right in. But, on her start date she was a no show…still a no show and no call of explanation. She must have gotten a better offer. I was bummed!
The good news is that the wife of my husbands associate at the shop is going to step in one day a week, and a few hours here or there during the week, to do my job, to fill in that gap, so that I can get back to taking care of myself. She was a God send…when God closes a door and all of that!
Next week I have three cardiologist appointments right in a row. I am having problems that could be related to my heart so I am having a bunch of tests done. I’m not really looking forward to it, however! The doc said I will probably be fairly worn out once day three comes a long. My blood pressure is just not responding to medication very well, and the blod clotting disorders are a concern at this point. I really don’t want to be on any more medication…and so far I have managed to talk him out of blood thiners! That is a victory for me.
But after my fun filled week, I will be going to visit my brother in Indiana and i can’t wait. I need to get away. I wish my hubby could come with, but not this time. I would love for us to plan a getaway together. It seems like it has been such a long time for us. I don’t like feeling like we are disconnected somewhat, but lately, that’s how I feel. I don’t feel well most of the time and i know what I have been doing at the shop has been suffering because of it. I can’t remember from one minute to the next what I did or didn’t do. I feel depressed a lot of the time because I just don’t have it in me to do what needs to be done at home! So, I sit, and rest and hope that tomorrow will be a better day!
So, once again God in his good ness found a solution to our replacement problem. I am just praying that there is an answer to why I’m feeling so crummy lately! here’s hoping!