Processing life right now has become somewhat difficult. I’m not really sure how I am supposed to feel. It hasn’t truly hit me that dad is gone yet. I have purposely avoided going over to his house since the funeral week because I am afraid it will be too overwhelming for me. But, at the same time I need to go there to get some things out of there before the house is sold. I can feel my body reacting to my lack of reaction. I am sore and stiff and not feeling well. In fact this morning I woke up wondering if I am getting the flu…although I did have a flu shot! So, where do I go from here?
If i could just curl up and sleep for a few weeks I keep thinking that I will wake up and feel better. But, I’m sure that’s not true! I’m trying really hard to get into the christmas/thanksgiving spirit but that is coming hard to me as well. I can’t even believe that thanksgiving is next week already. I keep thinking I have at least a month to prepare for all of this.
Well, I guess I just keep putting one foot in front of the other…keep moving and forging ahead. As my grandpa used to say…”time marches on!”