Well, tonight is the night. It’s supposed to be exciting and thrilling, full of parties and festivities. But, pretty much as normal, we are staying in tonight. New Years’ eve has become a time of relaxing for us. We reconnect with each other and rest up for the new year ahead. And, to be honest, this last year hasn’t been great…so looking forward to a better and brighter new year is a hopeful thing for me. Losing my dad this past October, and trying to move forward without either of my parents has been a daunting and somewhat scary proposition. I’ve never really been without them. Even when I moved to AZ in the 80’s, with them staying in the frigid cold of MN, they were always in my heart, and on my mind (which was fairly evident by my long distance phone bill LOL) But, they finally took the plunge and moved here in 1992 and we were all together again.
I was reminded today, when my daughter who is sick with the flu, called and asked me to bring her some stuff from the store, of all the times when I had had surgery, or was pregnant on bed rest, and I would make that call to mom and dad asking them to come sit with me, or bring me some ginger ale, or just talk me through those depressing moments. They were always right there. Now, it is hard having them gone. Hopefully the new year will bring less sorrow and more joy.
Lupus is something that I will live with forever. And I have been dealing with some issues regarding that lately as well. I have pain in my upper left side of my back, when I breath, sleep, move, try to carry anything. The pain, which I thought was muscle related, is not going away, instead deciding to get worse and more intense as time goes by. So, to the doctor I go right after the 1st to find out what new thing has decided to go haywire in my already strange and mixxed up body! But that is a problem that I have learned to deal with, and cope with, on a daily basis. It is my hope that in the new year things will stay at the status quo and not get worse. That’s the best I can hope for at this point.
I will be getting a new grand baby in the new year. That is always a joyous time and a time to remember that life always carries on even after losing loved ones and suffering the pain of that loss. I am looking forward to Wyatt entering our world and seeing his lovely eyes for the first time.
And, as for my new years resolution, I don’t really believe in luck, but I do think that if you write something down, put it on paper and people see it it may make you more accountable to do what you said. So, this year I resolve to write everyday…write pages of the book I am working on…book number two for me,( the first was co authored with my brother and published several years ago). I want to finish it and begin the task of sending it out to be either rejected or loved (hopefully the latter) by a publisher. I have a great editor in my daughter who is a journalism graduate, and I’m sure she will whip my butt whenever I find myself straying from the writing path.
I also resolve to eat better and try to excersize some each week. The pain of excersize for me is often intolerable. But, I think probably the health benefits of it may help me in the long run. I’m not going to make some big resolution to lose so much weight because that just never works. However, eating better…that’s a different story.
In the end, I am just hoping that 2010 is a whole lot better then the last couple of years have been for all of us. It has been a tough go of it as a country, as a community, as a family and personally for many of us. I pray for all of those in the service who have not seen home in a long time, for their families and friends, that 2010 will bring them home, bring peace to our nation and that prosperity and love will begin to bloom again.
Here are a few photos of the fun we had Christmas day at my brother’s house. It was a chilly, but wonderful day and I had such a great time. Happy new year everyone…and God Bless you all!